Today I read something that at first seemed really stupid and i gave no thought to until an hour ago. “If you’re bored with life, if you don’t get up every morning with a burning desire to do things, You don’t have enough goals.” I used to think i had enough goals until i really thought about this. To be honest, i have been waking up for a long time now, feeling that way. Feeling bored with life and feeling as though i have nothing to wake up to. I wake up and dread going to my first job, come home and wish I was more excited to go to my second. I worry about my mom before i go to sleep. And I miss my friends in between all this. The only good thing that I have in my life right now are the friends that I rarely see and my girlfriend, but I’m worried that all my anger and sadness about everything else will seep into my love life. I’ve been thinking about this for an entire hour. I’ve been reflecting on some life decisions, and feeling regret for some. Up until today, I didn’t realize I didn’t have enough goals. So tonight I’m going to make some, and from now on, I’m going to try my hardest to achieve them. I have a lot written down, but I’m only going to post the most important ones to me.
By the summer of 2015 I want to know exactly what school I want to transfer to, and be near to completing all the requirements. I wasted a lot of time by not going to school, but it’s never too late. I really enjoy school and I want to invest much more of my time in it. I’m glad I finished this semester with a full schedule and received good grades.
By the end of this year, 2014, I want to be in a job that I enjoy going to everyday. I want to be part of a place that i feel i deserve. I’m one of the hardest working people you will ever meet, but i feel that working these two dead end jobs is taking it’s toll on me. Working makes me happy, and i don’t want these jobs to ruin that.
By August of this year, I want to be done paying off all my debt (except for school debt) I want to start building good credit and apply for credit cards and use them responsibly.
By March 13 of 2015 (my birthday) I want to at least have $4000 in savings for a down payment on a newer car. Not a new car, but one that is newer than the one i currently have.
By as soon as possible, I want to give my mother everything she deserves. The strongest person in my life. We have been through so much together and she has never broken. Although her outlook on certain things have not been agreeable by me and my siblibngs, she is still my mother and I love her.
By tomorrow, I want to wake up and not be bored with my life. I want to have a desire to reach these goals and be happy. I want to take advantage of the good things in life. I want to cherish the wonderful girlfriend that i have and spend some more time with my mom. I want to hang out with friends more, and make some memories. I want to be happy. I’m going to be happy.